welcome to the inner monologue.
^^NOW^^ running several times daily
now playing inside my head
- to fat
- to pimply
- to many bruises
- to many bites
- to curly
- to “curvy”
- to short
- to wide
- to lumpy
- to hyper
- to lazy
- to emotional
- to immature
- to un inspired
- to “chesty”
- to material?
- to clumsy
- to slutty
- to prudish
- to modest
- to bitchy
- to common
- to average
- to “unique”
- to annoying
- to over the top
- to noisy
- to quiet
- why me?
- why not?
- why so?
- just why?
- wrong music
- wrong style
- wrong taste
- wrong life
- wrong choices
- wrong people
- wrong peers
- wrong everything
is this really how everyone feels?
- not smart enough
- not pretty enough
- not the right style
- not the right shape
- not the right size
- not what I thought
- not what you need
- not the right hair cut
- not the right clothes
- not the life style I want
- not any thing at all
- not the right outlook?
what am I ment to do when everyday I get reminded of all the thing Im not?
how does any body win?
- F*** this
- F*** that
- F*** you
- I’m sorry I can’t make things better
- I hate you
- I love you
- I l0st you
- you ruined who I was
- I’m losing you
- I’m losing you too
- your leaving
they’re moving on and I’m still here… just floating
- I’m not what you need right now, I know I have failed you and it kills me inside to know this
- I dont even know who you are any more
- I dont know what I have done?? I used to trust you
……….and repeat……….
