Skins

I have disided that I enjoy that tv show skins

its rather good.

that is all

 

what a wonderful world

…

earth is bazaar( i know I dodnt spell it right … Im dumb go away)

I wish I was making this up.

on the way home on friday night from work we were driving through raymond terrace, for those who dont know the terrace is mainly houseing developments.

so you get used to seeing odd things now and then, well. as we were passing the macdonalds I saw a girl with a royal green parrot on her shoulder and she was giving it kisses. …

AND then two houses later there was a 17 year old guy jumping around with two ninja swords.

HOORAY FOR RANDOM-NESS

refer back to my last bloggy thing

* I changed the name of said person

 

Name* says (5:26 PM): bored as ayee

Steff says (5:26 PM): same

Name* says (5:26 PM): wonna see my dick on web cam

Steff says (5:26 PM): no thanks

 

no, come on fellas. why would you want to show some random girl you have never met your junk?

gosh

Gah! boys are gross V2

mmkay now Im not in any way… I dunno what to say

 

BUT when a guy you’ve never met adds you on msn and says

“sup wana hook up?” I feel sick

no hi how it going? or even whats your name its just

.

are you dirty? wana hook up? your hot? sex? what has a guy done to you?

cyber?

I cant help but say I chortled at this.

I mean come on lads.

is that seriously it?is that all you can think about?

eww.

or maybe its just the boys that I attract… they are allways creeps..

or lurkers or aparently now furkers… hahahha see what I did there

damn

 

 

 

random inner thoughts

welcome to the inner monologue.

^^NOW^^ running several times daily

now playing inside my head

• to fat
• to pimply
• to many bruises
• to many bites
• to curly
• to “curvy”
• to short
• to wide
• to lumpy
• to hyper
• to lazy
• to emotional
• to immature
• to un inspired
• to “chesty”
• to material?
• to clumsy
• to slutty
• to prudish
• to modest
• to bitchy
• to common
• to average
• to “unique”
• to annoying
• to over the top
• to noisy
• to quiet
• why me?
• why not?
• why so?
• just why?
• wrong music
• wrong style
• wrong taste
• wrong life
• wrong choices
• wrong people
• wrong peers
• wrong everything

is this really how everyone feels?

• not smart enough
• not pretty enough
• not the right style
• not the right shape
• not the right  size
• not what I thought
• not what you need
• not the right hair cut
• not the right clothes
• not the life style I want
• not any thing at all

• not the right outlook?

what am I ment to do when everyday I get reminded of all the thing Im not?
how does any body win?

• F*** this
• F*** that
• F*** you
• I’m sorry I can’t make things better
• I hate you
• I love you
• I l0st you
• you ruined who I was
• I’m losing you
• I’m losing you too
• your leaving

they’re moving on and I’m still here…    just   floating

• I’m not what you need right now, I know I have failed you and it kills me inside to know this
• I dont even know who you are any more
• I dont know what I have done?? I used to trust you

……….and repeat……….

Dear God…

dear God,

thankyou for noodlebox for filling our rumbly bellies and for water to drink so we dont get pimples. shanks for my friend who put up with all my shit, and thanks  for letting me hold on to what family I have left

please take care of those I know who are going through allot of bad stuff right now.

I know I must sound greedy for this but please, please move the person who has caused so much agony in my life this year far away. we both know they would be happier else where.

write back soon.

Procrastination

hmm yeah , school certificates next week. HELP ME XENU.

I should be studying but the little voice in my head’s like why bother?

hmm Im tired I need sleep.

yuck formals soon. gah. much like every other day of my life, if I wanted to feel bad about myself I would just look in the mirror in a singlet and shorts.

then theres the dress shit like ; be yourself, NO try and be sexy, NO be your self… and the cycle continues.

ok Im being a epic bitch. I need sleep. laters

have you ever…

been to a party and thought “would any one miss me if I weren’t here”

hmm…though walking around waratah was fun… more fun then the actual party ^^ ZING^^

but… I learned that if I drink bacadi to fast I become less clumbsy which is cool

I saw couples retreat… it was funny like laugh out loud funny\

hmm this blog was alittle adhd

 

haqppy halloween my pretties

today Im not going to complain about shit… it will be a nice change

 

…

I got my merlottes tee shirt for the party, but my vampire tattoos didnt arrive in time oh well AND Im about to re-straighten my hair… I SHALL BE SOOKIE STACKSHOUSE y’all

bbyyyiilll theee vaampiyre

^.^

hooray

 

cos this is just a dance hall drug….. you can’t wait to fall in love

in a couple days it will be Halloween (yay for dressing up like a slut *thumbs up*.. I’m going as non-slut sookie stackhouse ), and hence am going to what was ment to be a small party,but has now become a big-ish thing.

Personally I dont care what happens at said party. you know the usual;

.alcohol. drunken slurs. awkward situations.

THAT SOUNDS AWESOME.. that’s the fun of being a teenager.. you only live once right??

but… as always.. someones going to go to far. as of this morning I have discovered that certain unnamed persons will be sneaking drugs in.now I’m going to make this very clear.

I have not nor will I ever take drugs of any kind. they are a weakness and a crutch , n these days they honestly do way more harm then good at the end of the day. yes there are those who can control themselves.. but most people can’t

this I’m sure this is surprising for those who believe that I am a druggo, because I have curly hair and act like a spaz.. when at the end of the day….. I’m just a slightly hyperactive spaz… soz for the let down folks.

your all updated now

happy Halloween